|Scottish Premiership: St Mirren v Motherwell|
|Venue: Simple Digital Arena Date: 6 February Time: 19:45 GMT|
The Motherwell and also Northern Ireland goalkeeper was finally”just” diagnosed with deep vein thrombosis (DVT), however the illness has put an indefinite halt to his career for the last number of weeks.
Here, the 30-year-old tells BBC Scotland about feeling”blessed”, his partner worrying about him falling away treadmills, and also how every bump to his mind could be fatal.
Carson woke on 11 November knowing something was wrong. He would later take to the field as Motherwell were humbled before you go off with Northern Ireland. It would lead him to being diagnosed with DVT, but only after doctors initially were”90% sure” he had cancer.
I was finding just a small niggle in my arm, which was. I’ve had shoulder injuries but this built up over the week.
For a doctor he could be 90% convinced you’ve got cancer makes you think you require a lot of stuff for granted. It was a bit of a jolt; you never expect at this age to have this kind of illness. Initially, I just wanted to find healthy, to become alive, for a dad, for my FIAncee.
I accepted it as a positive, how blessed I’ve already been. I may have had cancer. I’ve tried to stay positive during and its definitely helped me. There have been times I’ve been down, but I’ve got and I’m definitely looking on the bright side today.
Carson’s treatment finishes on 25 May, then he will have scans to be sure the clot has completely gone from his shoulder and lung. His intent is always to be back playing for the beginning of next season.
I’m available on tablets and at the hospital every afternoon, however I can not believe how much better I feel physically in the distance of two weeks. I was probably drained. I had no energy and was lethargic however today I’m doing doing full training.
That it is just a bit frustrating because I really feel as that I can play and really don’t really feel injured with, however I know if I received a blow to the mind it might be fatal, or so the risk is certainly not worth carrying.
I can not do any contact sport while I’m on these tablets that are blood-thinning. Because my blood is thin if I was to find a knock on your mind, it wouldn’t clot. Even though I bump on my mind across your house, I need to go right to get it assessed because it may be fatal. You play though a ankle or shoulder injury because the worst thing that’s could happen is it may go however I could be killed by this.
My missus is protective, so and therefore is my mom. Should I move on the treadmill they are like,”be careful, do not fall off”, but you can not live your life like that.
Since being back at your fitness center I’ve trained. I’m hungrier today than ever before in terms of playing and pushing on. It has given me the motivation to push myself.